Pride goes before a fall

I am starting to realize that even when God gives you a desire it is still His time and working that brings things to pass. Just as Abraham tried to fullfill Gods purpose with producing Ishmael and Gods plan was fullfilled in Issac.

I set Carlos, the homeless guy from church , up at the hostel. Nice bed, hot shower and a free breakfast; he stayed two nights and then didnt show up on the third. It was revealing to me how pride is the impediment to our blessings. As the Lord says, Before you judge others judge yourself. Take the log out of your own eye to take the speck out of your brothers. When we are compelled to judge a brother it is Gods way of telling us this is something in you that I want to change. Now what is it that the Lord is pointing to in me? Carlos is also looking for a job, and God introduced me to a guy named Tony, he used to live in the states, he is looking for someone to work with his brother doing painting and light construction. I could be insulted by his attitude and be prideful or I can tell him about this job and let God give him a blessing. Praise God He is so merciful in Christ Jesus to allow me to continue to bless Carlos even though he doesnt appreciate it. How many, many many, etc. times have I not appreciated Gods blessings in my life. And of course the most important and source of all blessings His Son the Lord Jesus Christ, who is forever praised. Amen.

Thursday the brothers and sisters from the Leon de Judea are coming to Centro and we are going witness in the plaza. Hopefully, it will be a good bunch and we will have music and worship. Praise Jesus. I am seeking the Lord to see if He wants to start a new fellowship in Centro. Most likely He will when I leave, Halelujah, so no flesh glories in His prescence.

I am going straight from Guadalajara to Seattle. I think the Lord wants me to attend the Seattle Bible College. It is from Petecostal tradition and I think it could be a blessing. It is interesting that even the so called "charasmatics" who believe in the gifts, dont operate in the gifts. They might require tongues as evidence of Baptism in the Holy Spirit, but the real evidence is signs and wonders. What good is having the Holy Spirit if you wont let Him minister to the church. Many times the "main man" pastor or other elder wants to be the one who is the star, and He will stifle the Spirit and the moving of the Spirit because He wants to be the one who is responsible for the signs and wonders, when in fact it is God and the overall willingness of the church to yield to the Spirit, and also as Paul says, Does God works signs and wonders in your midst because of your obedience to the Law or because of your belief in Jesus (paraphrase) Either way I know the Lord has me in Seattle for His glory. Praise His Name.

Dead Man Walking

In my previous posts I mentioned the battle I am having with lusting at the overwhelming amount of beautiful women everywhere in Guatalajara. It has been a real battle almost to the point of resignation. Today the Lord had me read Romans. I love the gift of freedom from sin and death and the guarantee of Gods faithful love in Christ Jesus. The Lord reminded me through Romans 6:11 that I am DEAD to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus. This is such a blessing. If I only had the death of the flesh to obey I would be running around trying to seduce every women who drew me in. Smiling, flirting, trying to entice for the purposes of satisfying my dead flesh. Thank God I have the Spirit to yield to and obey. Sometimes I forget this is freedom! I dont have to live in darkness and degradation, lusting and being enslaved by my flesh. I can live in the Spirit alive in God a new creation. Praise God! This is my response to the whole world. The lust of the eye, the flesh and the pride of life. Sometimes we forget how in bondage we were as sons of iniquity and dead in the world. The devil, the world and the flesh had me in such degradation and bondage I shuddder to think what my life would be without the Lord Jesus Christ. Who is forever praised. Amen. Praise God, dying to the flesh is not easy, but glorious freedom in the Spirit is my joy and salvation. Living in Christ is not a chore or burden. It isnt easy, but glory to God the benefits and hope of glory are indeed worth any price. For now on I dont complain or groan about the lust of my flesh. I rejoice in trials and temptation because, praise God, Jesus has defeated sin and death. I consider myself DEAD to sin, and, glory to Jeusus, alive to God in Christ Jesus my Lord. Halelujah!

The lowly among us

Hola, It has been a very productive week for the Lord. Somehow he has managed to allow me to witness for His glory in spite of my flesh. A brother at the Leon de Judah named Carlos has been chosen by the Lord to facilitate the revival in this area. He is a Mexican,speaks English and has lived in the US. He is poor even by Mexican standards, he is homeless and washes cars to earn money. I can tell the other believers at the church sort of look down on him. However, God in His glorious grace and mercy has decided to raise him up. I think the Lord wants him to move into the hostel where I am staying. The Lord wants me to show him the truths God by His glorious grace has been showing me. God is so merciful and patient. He raises up the poor and debased so no flesh will glory in His prescence. Halelujah! "Come to me all who are tired and down trodden and I will give you rest for your souls. "We have such a merciful and loving savior. He is our rest.
I think I am going to San diego and then to Seattle after I leave Mexico. I am still waiting on the Lord for more confirmation. I am sure of Seattle, but Im not sure of the path to get there. Either way I am thankful God continues to reveal himself to me in Christ Jesus our Lord to Him be the glory forever and ever. Amen. Jesus is Lord.

Merciful Father

Praise God! The Lord is merciful and gracious. His patience with me has been beyond understanding.
Our Lord and God the Lord Jesus Christ placed a backslidden Christian named Cody from Wisconsin in my room at the hostel. He is traveling Mexico and is fluent in Spanish. I really blasted him with the truth in love. He was not very receptive and actually got mad, saying "My time here was ruined because you were so pushy." He has no idea the Grace of God is the only thing keeping him from destruction. He grew up in the church and was not allowed to do anything. I think his parents provoked him to rebeling. He fell away when he went to college away from his parents and threir control. I let him know about the glorious freedom in Christ Jesus and how life in Christ is not dont do this, dont do that, but everything is yes and Amen in Christ Jesus and all God ask of us is to abstain from works of the flesh (which are evident) and to be obedient to God when he works the santification in our hearts. As I tell so many Christians , God Justifies, Sanactifies and Glorifies.So many times we conceded to Justification and Glorification, but for some reason we think the Sanctification is our job. If we only knew how much of our very existence and daily walk and life are a complete relience on God "leading us not into temptaion and delivering us from the evil one" we would see we are completely powerless without Christ Jesus.God has been so patient with me in His glorious grace. I pray the Lord protects him and shows him even more patience. Then again the disciplne I received from the Lord brought me into the belly of the beast and only by the Lord and His wonderful mercy and Grace am I writing this today, from Guadalajara, Mexico on a mission no less. God is Great. Halelujah! I have been massively struggleing with lust in the flesh with all these beautiful women. I believe God is using this to teach me how to have a pure heart without being legalistic. When our Lord Jesus said, We commit adultery in our hearts, I believe he meant if we desire to cheat on our wives our with anothers wife , but never actually do. I beleive it is the sames with fornication, that we desire fornication, but never do it is the same thing. All of the Sermon on the Mount needs to be accomplished by the Spirit and cant be walked with the flesh. Knowing this I think the Lord Jesus Christ and the mighy power that raised Him from the dead will create in me a clean heart. To Gods eternal Glory. Amen.

Leon de Judea

I went to Leon de Judea church in Zapopa, it was a real blessing. I rode my bike out there and got lost. When I was asking directions at a 7/11 a beautiful woman offered me a ride in her pick up truck. I threw the bike in the back and she drove me there. Praise God he always holds my hand.

At the church, the people were very gracious. Tim and Janice Greenfield from the CMA spoke English as did some of the people. The anointing there was nice. It was refereshing to be someplace were the Spirit of the Lord was actually moving. After the desert of American churches this was an oasis.

I am not totaly sure what the Lord has for me there. I had lunch with Tim Greenfield, the minister from CMA, he seemed like a sincere Christian, and loves Jesus. I think he just wanted to find out about me and were I was coming from concerning the church. I really had nothing to tell him, because I dont really know myself. I told him I am here for intercession and to fellowship. The Lord is God and of course whatever is His Will prevails. Of course I did not tell him I am an Apostle, I look forward to the day when I can proclaim this as boldly as Paul. Praise Jesus to him be the glory forever and ever. Amen.

Let no man tear apart

Last night, Thurs May 6 2010, I was riding my bike around midnight in some rundown area of Guadalajara and I stopped at a local store called OXXO for a coffee. As I was drinking my coffee the most beautiful woman in the world walked in the store. In Guadalajara there many, many beautiful women, but she was the most amazing creature I have ever saw. I was going to leave so I would not be tempted , but I decided to stay and finish my coffee. She came out of the store and we started talking. I was weary because her beauty was so extraordinary, I might have been trapped, but suddenly she confides in me her life is a mess, she tried to commit suicide twice, and showed me the scar on her wrist. She was drunk and actually started to cry. She was in a lot of pain. She spoke very little English so I kept repeating Jesus Christos, Jesus Christos. We exchanged numbers and she promised to call me on Friday or mannana. She spoke very little English, but somehow the Lord allowed us to communicate.We had the same color eyes. I might regret writing this, but I think she is my wife. What better way to meet your wife than to bring her to the Lord jesus Christ and then marry her for life. When I realized she might be my wife my heart skipped a beat. She knows she is as low as she can go and needs God in her life. So why not God and a man of God.

Praise Jesus to the Glory of God the Father

Grace and Peace from the Lord Jesus Christ and God the Father. I hope all who read this will realize I am nothing with out the Lord God in Christ Jesus. Nada. I know this sounds proud, maybe foolish, but God the Father in the Lord Jesus Christ has called me to be an Apostle of the Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ.
These days it seems that anyone who wants a title just has to claim it. I did not claim this, it claimed me.
The main sign of an Apostle is the revelation of the Gospel and the message for the time. Also, signs and wonders. God has not manifested signs and wonders in my ministry yet, but He will. Again, proud and foolish. Yes, boasting in the Lord and a fool for Christ.

Why would God call me to be an Apostle the least of all Christians. I have no idea. Anymore than I have an answer why God would show His mercy and grace on me in the first place. Yes, I have had deep profound experiences with Gods Spirit and he has revealed his glorious self to me in ways that have been surprising, but I have neglected so much of His leading and discipline that I should be crushed. Which is why I think he has called me for this humbling and vital ministry. God has beat my butt more than a few times and maybe someday I will go into it. For now I will document Gods plan and workings in my life. It came to me today to do this and of course "be anxious for nothing but with prayer make your requests known to God" I prayed and God gave me the go ahead. (I emailed a freind and said I could write a book about the bus ride from Guadalajara airort to the hostel I was staying at, I prayed and briefly later I opened the email and she responded "keep writing about your experiences so you dont forget") When I am asking for guidance in a major area I wait for many definite confirmations from the Lord, this is not a question of vitality about my ministry so one immediate confirmation will do. You always know a mature believer when they know how and when God is leading them and communicating with them. Of course my favorite is His word and Spirit, but circumstances will do. His Word being led by the Spirit is more glorious because I can share that with others. Then again getting others to listen is another story. And dont waste your time telling unbelievers about God communicating with you, they are hardened, and why throw pearls before swine. With unbelievers they have no clue about spiritual things so we can only talk about the cross. Halielujah! The Cross! Our resurrected Lord, how sweet the sound... Our Lord Jesus our Creator, Redeemer and King! Yes, this is all about Jesus. May the meditations of my heart and the words of my blog be pleasing to you Lord. One thing I am finding out fast is it is me and the Lord. Unbelievers have no clue and believers want to be first, so who am I to be an Apostle. Nobody, Nada.