reign in life by One Jesus Christ

I am in San Antonio,TX waiting to take a bus to Dallas to spend Thanksgiving with my sister Paula and her family. The enemy has been working overtime to let me know how bad I messed up by leaving Seattle and not marrying Anna. Praise Jesus, he always leads me triumphant. I have to admit I am getting pretty lonely. I have no friends, no wife, no kids (with me) and I am lonely. Praise Jesus. I can do all things through Christ. The LORD showed me "If God be for me who can b e against me?" Likewise, What can be against me? Where can be against me? I am "more than a conqueror through Him who loved me." I asked the LORD to show me what it means to "reign by grace and righteousness in Christ Jesus" and He is started to give me revelation.

Praise Jesus, I need to have patient endurance. God has been soooo patient with me the least, very least, I can do is wait on Him.

Ye of little faith

Wow! Many moons since I last typed this blog. I am in Boulder, CO and I bought a two month Greyhound travel pass and I am traveling across the country ending up in Boston December 7th or so.

The LORD has been showing me with faith all things are possible, but when the Son of Man returns will He find faith on earth? I am going for it by the grace of God. One thing people will say about me before I leave this place is he lived by hope, faith and love, the greatest being love. I am completely going for it and traveling the world by faith. I am going to learn multiple languages and bring people to Christ. I am going to fast and pray and love. I am going to show the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus by His marvelous grace and maybe I will actually keep up with this blog. I should be having many, many signs and wonders to report about the LORD.
Praise Jesus, nothing can separate me from the love of God in Christ Jesus!

seven times seventy

Praise Jesus. It has been a long time since I have posted. It is not because God has not been working in my life, I guess it just because I have been neglectful.

I am still living at the Bread of Life Mission. Still hating Seattle and the weather, but God has been working in my heart. I realized I had a lot of contempt for people. Contempt is a attitude of superiority that leads to degrading others. Real nasty stuff. God is mercy. His mercy is beyond our understanding. His mercy is beyond all things and reflects His glory. How wonderful and merciful is our God.

I met these guys who forsook everything and ride around on bikes telling people about Jesus. Real dedicated and sold out for Jesus folks. They believe in avoiding mammon and to not be controlled by mammon they must avoid it. Then God showed me that poverty is not the opposite of mammon, but generosity is the opposite. God does not want us to be poor, but He does not want us to store up treasures on earth. A big difference. Having a rich Christian who is generous is a blessing to the church and glorifies God.

I read a book called "Justice Waits" about these two teenagers who where brutally murdered. They where from Davis, California and the case went unsolved for twenty years until DNA evidence caught the killer. When the murder first happened in 1980 three people were arrested for the murder one man named "David Hunt" a career criminal who was doing twenty years for the kidnapping of two teenagers over a drug deal. Last week one of the staff named Eric told me about a guy who wanted to find a church to go to in the area and asked if I could help him out. I said sure I would be happy to help out a fellow brother. His name, "David Hunt". Oh yeh, career criminal just got out of twenty years in prison, now "born again" David Hunt.
Father, lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from the evil one.

Why did I read this book? I don't know why. Unless God comes down and taps me on the shoulder there is no way I am bringing this guy to a church consisting mostly of young adults. Frankly, I would not bring the guy to any group without notifying the leader of his situation. Praise God, he showed me Romans 3:22-24 But now a righteousness from God, apart from law, has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. 22This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, 23for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. I can see that Gods grace is Gods grace there "there is no difference", but I have been a Christian long enough to know how some Christians are only Christians when it is convenient.

You are annointed by God do whatever you want too

You are anointed by God do whatever you want too. This is what Nathan told David. Obviously that did not mean commit adultery and murder, but walk with the assurance that God is for you and not against you. I am starting to realize I have to do what my heart desires and let God make the way. This sitting around getting bitter because my life sucks is not working. Seattle has been nice, but I am not happy or fulfilled. "It is to my Fathers glory that you bear much fruit". The only thing I have been bearing is germs from the nasty places I have been staying and eating. Hey, what can I say that is the way things have been here. Was I called to Seattle, I certainly hope so because I have put up with more humiliation and poverty living that I don't want to mess with it anymore. If something is my heart (except sin) I am going for it and let God make the adjustments. I am tired of half psycho "Christians" and watching the world accomplish everything they set out to do and I am sitting around being fed and housed like a stuffed chicken.

keep silent for it is an evil time

I am starting to realize how completely corrupt and lost is this creation. The love is false and fickle. Every thought of man is evil, present company included. How merciful is my God to give me His Spirit and call me His son through His Son. I can smell death wherever I go. People have NO clue about the coming wrath. NO clue. I am going to "keep silent" in these wicked times and pray in the Spirit. I am starting to realize what the Apostles where talking about in keeping ourselves unstained and corrupted by the world, because the world is so very corrupt, but God created all things. How can this be? "Keep silent for it is an evil time"

the LORD God Almighty created all things

God created all things. Everything. Every atom, action and reaction. Where can I go from your Spirit? What a comforting thought from a loving Father and God. In my doubt or confusion I stumble around and God shows himself sovereign every time. Praise Jesus.

For the last three days I have had a brutal cold. The LORD led me to fast and I only fasted one day when I think He wanted a fast of four days. How do I know this? When God called me to fast through a couple of confirmations, through some brothers, the Red Sox where in town for a four day run and I thought that was the confirmation,. Unfortunately, I was so hurting from the fast I only made it one and half days. I really missed it. Then Martin and Robert started grilling me about Benny Hinn and my attitude toward him, and some other things, I told them to get lost and so on and so on. I was set up. When there is unforgiveness or resentment in your life it can effect your prayer life. I gave it to the LORD and the next day on my way to church I ran into Robert and Martin. I apologized and set things straight, as the LORD wanted.

Pastor Troy seems open to the deeper work of the Holy Spirit. God might use me to introduce him to the gifts. He knows there is a deeper walk with God, but I think he just cant figure it out. The problem is a lot of "charismatics" are into crazy unscriptual things, and they get to "emotional' out of the Spirit. It scares a lot of people. Praise Jesus. Gods word and Spirit always agree. Lets deeply and intently know and serve them both in harmony. Praise God, I hate to admit it, but I am to wiped out by this cold to continue writing. Jesus is LORD.

the path of the righteous is level

I have been in Seattle for six weeks and I have to admit this place is the worst place I have ever been. The weather is overcast and raining even in June and July. The people are more weird than San Francisco, without the class, and more shallow than San Diego, without the beauty. I have made some inroads with Christians, but as usual they are right when they left. God has shown me as the prideful, willful, thankless mess I have always been and I have nothing. Jesus is alive. No matter what happens, Jesus is alive. If I crash and burn again, Jesus is alive.

God is leading me to walk only by faith. Do I trust the Father enough to provide all my needs in Christ Jesus? Do I really believe "all things are possible with God"? Am I crucified to the world and the world is crucified to me? God will keep me in Seattle on disability, in my stew if I don't step out in faith, and trust Him for everything. He is being just, He is showing me, trust Him and I will take you places you never dreamed of, or trust man and stay in Seattle. Praise God. I am going to seek Him for all I am worth until I walk through this wilderness. I am hoping I will come out of this valley with a deeper knowledge of Christ Jesus my LORD.

two by two

Everyday the LORD brings me to meet a new Christian or witness to someone. He is faithful to encourage me in this wilderness. I met a sister in the LORD last week when she was soliciting for a Children's charity and she introduced me to a brother. Yesterday, I saw that other brother and ended up signing up to support a child in Mexico. He, also, offered me a place to stay when I am in Seattle. He lives with three other Christians and they have a group home. He is only 21, but has been a Christian since he was eight. Praise God, he also speaks in tongues as a prayer language. I am interested in seeing what the LORD does with our fellowship. Young Christians are real hard headed, but praise God they are the future. As Paul said to Timothy "you know my life and ministry because you have seen it". The best way to minister to these young Christians is to walk the walk. Praise Jesus by His glorious grace I do just that.

this is the day that the LORD has made

Praise God, I went to the "miracles" service and it was a Benny Hinn clone. The worship was okay and the word was accurate, then he started laying on hands. He starts screaming out, FIRE! Everyone starts falling out except me. It was a cult. I know I shouldn't judge or risk judgement, but I would not recommend that church to anyone. It would be nice to meet a Holy Spirit filled, speaking in tongues, Christian who isn't in a cult or mentally unstable.

So much has happened since I last posted. I only had 30 minutes as a visitor to the library, so I had to drop $25 to get a temporary library card for the real deal. Praise God, I would love to rip Seattle and the whole mess of humanity that dwells here, but God prevents me.

I went out witnessing with Martin, the guy I met outside the library, and we walked East while spreading the Gospel. We brought someone to the LORD and we also ministered to a guy who is dying from Cancer. We prayed for his healing and recovery, but who knows. You want to think God will heal him, but I am not the one looking at Cancer. Sometimes it is so easy to say, I'll pray for you, when in fact that is sort of a cop out. Someday God will move in my life with signes and wonders I know it.

Pastor Troy from the Chinese church I have been attending is going to help me send out Bibles to Josef and Line in Guadalajara. I an hoping to leave Seattle, please God soon, and go back to Guadalajara. I want to spend as much time as I can there and learn Spanish. Really learn Spanish. I think the LORD wants me to learn Spanish and Chinese. I know here I go again. I am going to marry America, Carlos is going to be the spark of the Revival, and PLOP, nothing. Praise Jesus, I am learning and God is faithful and patient.

signs and wonders

Tonight Martin, Robert and I are going to a healing service at Mercer Island. The Pastor is a Chinese Thai. Apparently they have healing services once a month. I believe in healing and I believe in miracles, but I also believe the anointing has to be there. I know this sounds kind of like unbelief, but actually it is belief. Jesus did MIRACLES, not undocumented healing's. Praise God, so did the Apostles. What was amazing is how fast the anointing left the church. I always believed God would have signs and wonders in my ministry. I think as you get deeper in Christ more miracles will happen in your life even though it might not be the signs and wonders that are commonly thought of in the ministry. My point is there are REAL MIRACLES, we don't need fake miracles. The blind can see, the lame can walk, and the the good news can be preached in the power of the Holy Spirit. If we settle for counterfeit miracles that is what we will get.

Two by two

Praise Jesus. After I left the library where I did my last post, I ran into two brothers who where sharing Jesus outside the library. These brothers share Jesus every Monday and Tuesday from noon to one. One of the brothers was a Pentecostal Armenian guy from California, the other was an Asian guy from Seattle. They where doing their best to preach, but they are kind of reticent. I started telling them of my faith and my wonderful Jesus and they said "Brother, you have the gift of preaching" Praise God! I told them it was the Holy Spirit and power. Most likely, LORD willing we will do some preaching together.

I have to keep reminding myself that I am a servant. Many times the people I am called to serve are actually people who bug me. Praise God, I am willing to learn humility in Christ Jesus. The LORD says, Before honor is humility. Praise God lets honor God with our humility. Jesus reigns for the glory of God the Father.

Not my will but your will Father

I am pretty sure I will be staying in Seattle. I hate the weather and the fact I am staying in a homeless shelter and the fact I haven't been able to ride a pedicab and this place needs Jesus. It has one of the highest percentage of atheists in the country and the and one of the highest rate of suicide and this place needs Jesus.
I miss David and my family, I miss Boston. I miss sunshine, I don't want to miss the will of the Father. Proverbs 22:4 Humility and fear of the LORD bring wealth and honor and life. Praise Jesus He is true and every promise is yes and Amen in Christ Jesus.

God has been dealing with me about humility and meekness. They go hand and hand. Humility is not being proud and meekness is being gentle. Both is letting the Lord work. Waiting on God to move and glorify Himself. What an honor. God in His faithfulness will give me the power now that He has given me the desire. He is more than able to accomplish His will in my life. I delight in thy will LORD. Crucifixion is never nice. He endured the humiliation of the cross for the glory set before Him.
Praise Jesus.

the laborers are few

My time in Seattle has been largely unproductive. One thing that has happened is the LORD has introduced me to some young brothers in Jesus. I have been encourageing them and trying to give them the freedom in Christ Jesus that is available. Everyday is a battle. I have to keep reminding myself that I am not a citizen of this world, but a citizen of heaven. Today I was reading my Bible on a stairway on 1st St. when a Spanish guy came up to me and asked me if I had a Spanish Bible, I did. You could see the look of amazement on his face. I gave him a cool pocket edition of the NIV in Spanish I picked up on my really bad night, when I was broke, and had to overdraw my account. Praise God! The LORD in His glorious wisdom allowed me to pick up this Bible from the Nightwatch place that could not find me a bed. How insignificant my inconvenience and trial when I could give this brother a Bible. Praise Jesus, He is all knowing and faithful.

It is raining , again, today in Seattle. I truly hate this place. I have been making friends with the homeless population and have been doing some ministering, but not the bang up revival preaching I thought that was going to happen. I have been selling Real Change newspapers to have enough money for my bed at the shelter. Saying you are trusting God and trusting God are two different walks. Blessing people when you are hanging from the cross, is all God. Praise Jesus! May He use me and mold me in His image. The eternal weight of glory is my reward. He who calls me is faithful.

Tommorow is Fathers Day I am trusting God I will have enough money to call my son David. I miss him much and really want to go back to Boston and be with him and my family. I am truly a slave to Christ Jesus and whatever He has I what I have, but I hope going to Boston is in the plan.

Just a Christian

I am staying in a homeless shelter and down to my last buck, but praise God I am a Christian. The eternal weight of glory is mine. Will I be rewarded or just make it through the fire, I don't know, but thank you Jesus I am going to glory. I don't have to be an Apostle as long as I am not an apostate.

I realized something very interesting which I have been reading in Romans for some 30 years now. My flesh hates God. I might as well say I, but that would not be accurate. My flesh hates God, my natural mind is at enmity with God. Every fiber in my flesh hates the Spirit of God. Thanks be to God for our Lord Jesus Christ and His mercy and grace. My flesh wants glory, my flesh wants to be satisfied and run my life, I am in sore need of Gods grace. I think we give lip service to the I want to be crucified with Christ scripture, crucifixion hurts a lot. Most Christians if you said you can have your ministry and the full knowledge of God if you actually get crucified would pass. But this is what the LORD is asking, death of the flesh, no glory, no input, nothing.

What will happen to me? I have no idea. I know God will somehow provide for me and lead me to Heaven in Christ Jesus, but how I don't know. May God give me peace in the meantime and allow me to glorify His name.

II Cor 1:9

"Indeed in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we would not rely on ourselves, but on God, who raises the dead." The overwhelming problems that I have been experiencing in Seattle have been a lesson that all that matters is Jesus rose from the dead. My only sustenance and salvation is the fact that Jesus is alive. I have been having bitter disappointments and I really do not like Seattle, okay I hate this place, but Praise God! I am going to glory! Will I go to SBC will I preach, will I have a place to stay? Nothing matters I am crucified to world and the world is crucified to me.

The LORD continues introducing me to young Christians that need encouragement. Also, other Christians who won't listen to anything. May I always be open to correction and even rebuke from the wisdom of God in Christ Jesus. Truly, this is a wicked and perverse generation and i don't want anything the world has to offer, by Gods glorious grace. Amen.

I think I will just devote my self to prayer and the word and seek the Lord for the next move. Sometimes the best action is to do nothing and wait on the LORD to make a way.

Does it rain in Hell?

I have been in Seattle for 13 days and it has been sunny twice. I haven't been able to work, my ankle is killing me and I hate this place more than San Diego. I know, grumbling and complaining is not advised, but hey David moaned a bit didn't he?
Like, LORD, please where are you!

Pastor Troy from the Chinese Church wanted to "have lunch" to "talk" I called him Tuesday at noon, twice, and he never answered. Man, I don't care anymore, if they listen, fine, if they don't fine, I am either planting or watering, but God makes them grow.

People in Seattle would rather lie to you than give you accurate directions. Maybe they are afraid to admit they don't know or maybe they are just jerks, either way whenever asking someone in Seattle anything always get two or more witnesses. I miss Guadalajara, nice people, decent food, chilling; Seattle,bad weather,living with the homeless, broke, angry, just really not loving life.

Praise God, if something positive does not happen by the end of the month I am heading back to Boston. Oh yeh, had to sell my guitar and bought a defective Megaphone. It is very subtle, but Satan is running things around here. And I dont' mean Bill Gates

Sleeping in Seattle

I have been in Seattle since June 4 and it has rained every day except one. I have not been able to ride a bike because of the rain and every owner has been giving me the run around. After the cool, leisurely life in Guadalajara (except the heat) it has been rough going. I originally went to the Seattle Bible School graduation and met up with Chris the student rep who I contacted by email. He was just starting a new ministry sending Bibles to Africa and other countries, he originally said he would be interested in sending the Bibles to Guadalajara, now it is on "will pray about it" status. "Will pray about it" is Christian talk for it will probably never happen. If I said to him I have 500 Bibles do you want them, he would say yes, but apparently giving might be better than receiving, but receiving is easier that giving.

God has opened an avenue for me with the Chinese churches in Seattle. I am staying at a hostel in Chinatown and I met two Chinese pastors at the SBC graduation. I went to a Baptist Chinese church last Sunday and most likely I will be introducing these pastors. Praise God. It has been a battle the last week, I ran out of money and had to overdraft my account and other assorted problems. I did buy a megaphone and plan on doing some street preaching, God willing. I am not sure why I have been running into this financial difficulty, but I am trusting God to show me what is up.

I am hoping to go to Boston to attend my niece's wedding and spend time with my son. I have been seeking God on this, but my attitude has been tempered because of this financial difficulty. Also, I am kind of tired of being around lukewarm Christians. There is no fire of God in the people I have been meeting, and to suggest to them there is a deeper walk awaiting in the Spirit they are always offended. Praise God, Father give me your patience and love for the brotherhood. Create in me a clean heart Lord, renew a right spirit in me. Jesus is still Lord!

Slaves of Christ Jesus

The Lord has put a burden on me to bring more Bibles to Guadalajara. I was looking on the internet about Bibles and Guadalajara and came upoun www.puregospeltruth.com This is an account of the ministry of Josif and Lima. They are American Christians ministering in Mexico and now stationed in Guadalajara. They are slaves of Jesus. Praise God. I knew God would raise someone up here who truly wants to bring the Word of God to the lost in this land. I originally thought I would be sending Bibles to Leon de Judah, but the Lord, as usual, had another plan. I contacted Josif by email and we met at the Degallado Theatre right next to the hostel. We went back to the hostel and they ministered to Miguel. Praise God. They also might use a room at the hostel for a Bible study. Whatever happens it was a real blessing meeting people who are completely sold out for the Lord. I hate being critical of Christians, when they are sincerely trying, but the self satisfaction of the Christians I have been meeting is discourageing. I think the main problem is they are not slaves of Christ and servants of the brethren. The Lord has shown me that no matter how anointed one might be that we should always be servants, willing to serve others, and consider others better than ourselves. As Paul ,after saving an entire shipful of people, because an angel appeared to him. In servitude he was gathering sticks for a fire when he was bitten by a snake and this led to him ministering to people on the island and performing miracles, so we should always be ready to serve others. How can we ever equal the servitude of Christ Jesus who gave up glory to become human and then is obedient in all things even to death on the cross.It is in our decietful human heart to want to be glorified. Wow! What arrogance, when it is all for Gods glory no matter what we think or do.

Praise Jesus. I am so thankful to our God and Father for His patience with me. I have to remember this before I write off Christians. With love, patience and prayer God can do the impossible. Humility and love is a powerful combination. Truly I am a testament of Gods love and power. He is the true and only God for ever and ever. Amen. Last night a teenage girl was pushing a younger girl in a wheelchair and I was on the balcony of the hostel. I waved and said, "Hola", the girl looked up at me and got up out of the wheelchair and started to walk. My heart stopped, but it turns out the wheelchair was for her Grandmother and not her. Praise God, I think the Lord is trying to tell me my miracle ministry is right around the corner. This prospect scares me and excites me. Scares me because I know how vicious people can be when confronted with the absolute reality of God, both believer and non-believer. Excites me because, praise God, I truly want to see people see the absolute reality of our Lord Jesus Christ and His power and sacrifice, unto the saving of souls. God is faithful and no matter what He has for me it is enough. Praise Jesus.

Pride goes before a fall

I am starting to realize that even when God gives you a desire it is still His time and working that brings things to pass. Just as Abraham tried to fullfill Gods purpose with producing Ishmael and Gods plan was fullfilled in Issac.

I set Carlos, the homeless guy from church , up at the hostel. Nice bed, hot shower and a free breakfast; he stayed two nights and then didnt show up on the third. It was revealing to me how pride is the impediment to our blessings. As the Lord says, Before you judge others judge yourself. Take the log out of your own eye to take the speck out of your brothers. When we are compelled to judge a brother it is Gods way of telling us this is something in you that I want to change. Now what is it that the Lord is pointing to in me? Carlos is also looking for a job, and God introduced me to a guy named Tony, he used to live in the states, he is looking for someone to work with his brother doing painting and light construction. I could be insulted by his attitude and be prideful or I can tell him about this job and let God give him a blessing. Praise God He is so merciful in Christ Jesus to allow me to continue to bless Carlos even though he doesnt appreciate it. How many, many many, etc. times have I not appreciated Gods blessings in my life. And of course the most important and source of all blessings His Son the Lord Jesus Christ, who is forever praised. Amen.

Thursday the brothers and sisters from the Leon de Judea are coming to Centro and we are going witness in the plaza. Hopefully, it will be a good bunch and we will have music and worship. Praise Jesus. I am seeking the Lord to see if He wants to start a new fellowship in Centro. Most likely He will when I leave, Halelujah, so no flesh glories in His prescence.

I am going straight from Guadalajara to Seattle. I think the Lord wants me to attend the Seattle Bible College. It is from Petecostal tradition and I think it could be a blessing. It is interesting that even the so called "charasmatics" who believe in the gifts, dont operate in the gifts. They might require tongues as evidence of Baptism in the Holy Spirit, but the real evidence is signs and wonders. What good is having the Holy Spirit if you wont let Him minister to the church. Many times the "main man" pastor or other elder wants to be the one who is the star, and He will stifle the Spirit and the moving of the Spirit because He wants to be the one who is responsible for the signs and wonders, when in fact it is God and the overall willingness of the church to yield to the Spirit, and also as Paul says, Does God works signs and wonders in your midst because of your obedience to the Law or because of your belief in Jesus (paraphrase) Either way I know the Lord has me in Seattle for His glory. Praise His Name.

Dead Man Walking

In my previous posts I mentioned the battle I am having with lusting at the overwhelming amount of beautiful women everywhere in Guatalajara. It has been a real battle almost to the point of resignation. Today the Lord had me read Romans. I love the gift of freedom from sin and death and the guarantee of Gods faithful love in Christ Jesus. The Lord reminded me through Romans 6:11 that I am DEAD to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus. This is such a blessing. If I only had the death of the flesh to obey I would be running around trying to seduce every women who drew me in. Smiling, flirting, trying to entice for the purposes of satisfying my dead flesh. Thank God I have the Spirit to yield to and obey. Sometimes I forget this is freedom! I dont have to live in darkness and degradation, lusting and being enslaved by my flesh. I can live in the Spirit alive in God a new creation. Praise God! This is my response to the whole world. The lust of the eye, the flesh and the pride of life. Sometimes we forget how in bondage we were as sons of iniquity and dead in the world. The devil, the world and the flesh had me in such degradation and bondage I shuddder to think what my life would be without the Lord Jesus Christ. Who is forever praised. Amen. Praise God, dying to the flesh is not easy, but glorious freedom in the Spirit is my joy and salvation. Living in Christ is not a chore or burden. It isnt easy, but glory to God the benefits and hope of glory are indeed worth any price. For now on I dont complain or groan about the lust of my flesh. I rejoice in trials and temptation because, praise God, Jesus has defeated sin and death. I consider myself DEAD to sin, and, glory to Jeusus, alive to God in Christ Jesus my Lord. Halelujah!

The lowly among us

Hola, It has been a very productive week for the Lord. Somehow he has managed to allow me to witness for His glory in spite of my flesh. A brother at the Leon de Judah named Carlos has been chosen by the Lord to facilitate the revival in this area. He is a Mexican,speaks English and has lived in the US. He is poor even by Mexican standards, he is homeless and washes cars to earn money. I can tell the other believers at the church sort of look down on him. However, God in His glorious grace and mercy has decided to raise him up. I think the Lord wants him to move into the hostel where I am staying. The Lord wants me to show him the truths God by His glorious grace has been showing me. God is so merciful and patient. He raises up the poor and debased so no flesh will glory in His prescence. Halelujah! "Come to me all who are tired and down trodden and I will give you rest for your souls. "We have such a merciful and loving savior. He is our rest.
I think I am going to San diego and then to Seattle after I leave Mexico. I am still waiting on the Lord for more confirmation. I am sure of Seattle, but Im not sure of the path to get there. Either way I am thankful God continues to reveal himself to me in Christ Jesus our Lord to Him be the glory forever and ever. Amen. Jesus is Lord.

Merciful Father

Praise God! The Lord is merciful and gracious. His patience with me has been beyond understanding.
Our Lord and God the Lord Jesus Christ placed a backslidden Christian named Cody from Wisconsin in my room at the hostel. He is traveling Mexico and is fluent in Spanish. I really blasted him with the truth in love. He was not very receptive and actually got mad, saying "My time here was ruined because you were so pushy." He has no idea the Grace of God is the only thing keeping him from destruction. He grew up in the church and was not allowed to do anything. I think his parents provoked him to rebeling. He fell away when he went to college away from his parents and threir control. I let him know about the glorious freedom in Christ Jesus and how life in Christ is not dont do this, dont do that, but everything is yes and Amen in Christ Jesus and all God ask of us is to abstain from works of the flesh (which are evident) and to be obedient to God when he works the santification in our hearts. As I tell so many Christians , God Justifies, Sanactifies and Glorifies.So many times we conceded to Justification and Glorification, but for some reason we think the Sanctification is our job. If we only knew how much of our very existence and daily walk and life are a complete relience on God "leading us not into temptaion and delivering us from the evil one" we would see we are completely powerless without Christ Jesus.God has been so patient with me in His glorious grace. I pray the Lord protects him and shows him even more patience. Then again the disciplne I received from the Lord brought me into the belly of the beast and only by the Lord and His wonderful mercy and Grace am I writing this today, from Guadalajara, Mexico on a mission no less. God is Great. Halelujah! I have been massively struggleing with lust in the flesh with all these beautiful women. I believe God is using this to teach me how to have a pure heart without being legalistic. When our Lord Jesus said, We commit adultery in our hearts, I believe he meant if we desire to cheat on our wives our with anothers wife , but never actually do. I beleive it is the sames with fornication, that we desire fornication, but never do it is the same thing. All of the Sermon on the Mount needs to be accomplished by the Spirit and cant be walked with the flesh. Knowing this I think the Lord Jesus Christ and the mighy power that raised Him from the dead will create in me a clean heart. To Gods eternal Glory. Amen.

Leon de Judea

I went to Leon de Judea church in Zapopa, it was a real blessing. I rode my bike out there and got lost. When I was asking directions at a 7/11 a beautiful woman offered me a ride in her pick up truck. I threw the bike in the back and she drove me there. Praise God he always holds my hand.

At the church, the people were very gracious. Tim and Janice Greenfield from the CMA spoke English as did some of the people. The anointing there was nice. It was refereshing to be someplace were the Spirit of the Lord was actually moving. After the desert of American churches this was an oasis.

I am not totaly sure what the Lord has for me there. I had lunch with Tim Greenfield, the minister from CMA, he seemed like a sincere Christian, and loves Jesus. I think he just wanted to find out about me and were I was coming from concerning the church. I really had nothing to tell him, because I dont really know myself. I told him I am here for intercession and to fellowship. The Lord is God and of course whatever is His Will prevails. Of course I did not tell him I am an Apostle, I look forward to the day when I can proclaim this as boldly as Paul. Praise Jesus to him be the glory forever and ever. Amen.

Let no man tear apart

Last night, Thurs May 6 2010, I was riding my bike around midnight in some rundown area of Guadalajara and I stopped at a local store called OXXO for a coffee. As I was drinking my coffee the most beautiful woman in the world walked in the store. In Guadalajara there many, many beautiful women, but she was the most amazing creature I have ever saw. I was going to leave so I would not be tempted , but I decided to stay and finish my coffee. She came out of the store and we started talking. I was weary because her beauty was so extraordinary, I might have been trapped, but suddenly she confides in me her life is a mess, she tried to commit suicide twice, and showed me the scar on her wrist. She was drunk and actually started to cry. She was in a lot of pain. She spoke very little English so I kept repeating Jesus Christos, Jesus Christos. We exchanged numbers and she promised to call me on Friday or mannana. She spoke very little English, but somehow the Lord allowed us to communicate.We had the same color eyes. I might regret writing this, but I think she is my wife. What better way to meet your wife than to bring her to the Lord jesus Christ and then marry her for life. When I realized she might be my wife my heart skipped a beat. She knows she is as low as she can go and needs God in her life. So why not God and a man of God.

Praise Jesus to the Glory of God the Father

Grace and Peace from the Lord Jesus Christ and God the Father. I hope all who read this will realize I am nothing with out the Lord God in Christ Jesus. Nada. I know this sounds proud, maybe foolish, but God the Father in the Lord Jesus Christ has called me to be an Apostle of the Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ.
These days it seems that anyone who wants a title just has to claim it. I did not claim this, it claimed me.
The main sign of an Apostle is the revelation of the Gospel and the message for the time. Also, signs and wonders. God has not manifested signs and wonders in my ministry yet, but He will. Again, proud and foolish. Yes, boasting in the Lord and a fool for Christ.

Why would God call me to be an Apostle the least of all Christians. I have no idea. Anymore than I have an answer why God would show His mercy and grace on me in the first place. Yes, I have had deep profound experiences with Gods Spirit and he has revealed his glorious self to me in ways that have been surprising, but I have neglected so much of His leading and discipline that I should be crushed. Which is why I think he has called me for this humbling and vital ministry. God has beat my butt more than a few times and maybe someday I will go into it. For now I will document Gods plan and workings in my life. It came to me today to do this and of course "be anxious for nothing but with prayer make your requests known to God" I prayed and God gave me the go ahead. (I emailed a freind and said I could write a book about the bus ride from Guadalajara airort to the hostel I was staying at, I prayed and briefly later I opened the email and she responded "keep writing about your experiences so you dont forget") When I am asking for guidance in a major area I wait for many definite confirmations from the Lord, this is not a question of vitality about my ministry so one immediate confirmation will do. You always know a mature believer when they know how and when God is leading them and communicating with them. Of course my favorite is His word and Spirit, but circumstances will do. His Word being led by the Spirit is more glorious because I can share that with others. Then again getting others to listen is another story. And dont waste your time telling unbelievers about God communicating with you, they are hardened, and why throw pearls before swine. With unbelievers they have no clue about spiritual things so we can only talk about the cross. Halielujah! The Cross! Our resurrected Lord, how sweet the sound... Our Lord Jesus our Creator, Redeemer and King! Yes, this is all about Jesus. May the meditations of my heart and the words of my blog be pleasing to you Lord. One thing I am finding out fast is it is me and the Lord. Unbelievers have no clue and believers want to be first, so who am I to be an Apostle. Nobody, Nada.