keep silent for it is an evil time

I am starting to realize how completely corrupt and lost is this creation. The love is false and fickle. Every thought of man is evil, present company included. How merciful is my God to give me His Spirit and call me His son through His Son. I can smell death wherever I go. People have NO clue about the coming wrath. NO clue. I am going to "keep silent" in these wicked times and pray in the Spirit. I am starting to realize what the Apostles where talking about in keeping ourselves unstained and corrupted by the world, because the world is so very corrupt, but God created all things. How can this be? "Keep silent for it is an evil time"

the LORD God Almighty created all things

God created all things. Everything. Every atom, action and reaction. Where can I go from your Spirit? What a comforting thought from a loving Father and God. In my doubt or confusion I stumble around and God shows himself sovereign every time. Praise Jesus.

For the last three days I have had a brutal cold. The LORD led me to fast and I only fasted one day when I think He wanted a fast of four days. How do I know this? When God called me to fast through a couple of confirmations, through some brothers, the Red Sox where in town for a four day run and I thought that was the confirmation,. Unfortunately, I was so hurting from the fast I only made it one and half days. I really missed it. Then Martin and Robert started grilling me about Benny Hinn and my attitude toward him, and some other things, I told them to get lost and so on and so on. I was set up. When there is unforgiveness or resentment in your life it can effect your prayer life. I gave it to the LORD and the next day on my way to church I ran into Robert and Martin. I apologized and set things straight, as the LORD wanted.

Pastor Troy seems open to the deeper work of the Holy Spirit. God might use me to introduce him to the gifts. He knows there is a deeper walk with God, but I think he just cant figure it out. The problem is a lot of "charismatics" are into crazy unscriptual things, and they get to "emotional' out of the Spirit. It scares a lot of people. Praise Jesus. Gods word and Spirit always agree. Lets deeply and intently know and serve them both in harmony. Praise God, I hate to admit it, but I am to wiped out by this cold to continue writing. Jesus is LORD.

the path of the righteous is level

I have been in Seattle for six weeks and I have to admit this place is the worst place I have ever been. The weather is overcast and raining even in June and July. The people are more weird than San Francisco, without the class, and more shallow than San Diego, without the beauty. I have made some inroads with Christians, but as usual they are right when they left. God has shown me as the prideful, willful, thankless mess I have always been and I have nothing. Jesus is alive. No matter what happens, Jesus is alive. If I crash and burn again, Jesus is alive.

God is leading me to walk only by faith. Do I trust the Father enough to provide all my needs in Christ Jesus? Do I really believe "all things are possible with God"? Am I crucified to the world and the world is crucified to me? God will keep me in Seattle on disability, in my stew if I don't step out in faith, and trust Him for everything. He is being just, He is showing me, trust Him and I will take you places you never dreamed of, or trust man and stay in Seattle. Praise God. I am going to seek Him for all I am worth until I walk through this wilderness. I am hoping I will come out of this valley with a deeper knowledge of Christ Jesus my LORD.

two by two

Everyday the LORD brings me to meet a new Christian or witness to someone. He is faithful to encourage me in this wilderness. I met a sister in the LORD last week when she was soliciting for a Children's charity and she introduced me to a brother. Yesterday, I saw that other brother and ended up signing up to support a child in Mexico. He, also, offered me a place to stay when I am in Seattle. He lives with three other Christians and they have a group home. He is only 21, but has been a Christian since he was eight. Praise God, he also speaks in tongues as a prayer language. I am interested in seeing what the LORD does with our fellowship. Young Christians are real hard headed, but praise God they are the future. As Paul said to Timothy "you know my life and ministry because you have seen it". The best way to minister to these young Christians is to walk the walk. Praise Jesus by His glorious grace I do just that.

this is the day that the LORD has made

Praise God, I went to the "miracles" service and it was a Benny Hinn clone. The worship was okay and the word was accurate, then he started laying on hands. He starts screaming out, FIRE! Everyone starts falling out except me. It was a cult. I know I shouldn't judge or risk judgement, but I would not recommend that church to anyone. It would be nice to meet a Holy Spirit filled, speaking in tongues, Christian who isn't in a cult or mentally unstable.

So much has happened since I last posted. I only had 30 minutes as a visitor to the library, so I had to drop $25 to get a temporary library card for the real deal. Praise God, I would love to rip Seattle and the whole mess of humanity that dwells here, but God prevents me.

I went out witnessing with Martin, the guy I met outside the library, and we walked East while spreading the Gospel. We brought someone to the LORD and we also ministered to a guy who is dying from Cancer. We prayed for his healing and recovery, but who knows. You want to think God will heal him, but I am not the one looking at Cancer. Sometimes it is so easy to say, I'll pray for you, when in fact that is sort of a cop out. Someday God will move in my life with signes and wonders I know it.

Pastor Troy from the Chinese church I have been attending is going to help me send out Bibles to Josef and Line in Guadalajara. I an hoping to leave Seattle, please God soon, and go back to Guadalajara. I want to spend as much time as I can there and learn Spanish. Really learn Spanish. I think the LORD wants me to learn Spanish and Chinese. I know here I go again. I am going to marry America, Carlos is going to be the spark of the Revival, and PLOP, nothing. Praise Jesus, I am learning and God is faithful and patient.